The Most Powerful Forces Of Good Ever Assembled.

I picked up my accordion tonight for the first time in a while, and played [by ear] a song from Amelie. And then without any effort played and sang a new song, which is something that I've never had much luck with before. The ease with which it came reminded me yet again of how much easer everything feels. How much better. I feared so much what being in this position would do to me because never had I successfully been in it, and I realize that there could be nothing better when it comes to my creativity and drive and happiness. Nothing. We are there. We are right where people strive to be. And people fucking get it. THEY GET IT! And that's beautiful, and thrilling, and more than I could have ever asked for.
I'm still very afraid of death, and now more than ever have more reason to be, but somewhere in me I can feel the fear subside a little, if only for a moment at a time, because not being alone gives me so much more reason to live, and to live my life the way I want to, and to not be afraid.


I stopped typing somewhere in there, turned to my sister and said, "Hey! How was work." And that was fucking awesome.


And Birdman might be falling in love too.