Thicker than ink.

Today we have a substitute in Senior Seminar. His name is Michael Bolton and I keep joking about him being the one that recorded the soundtrack version of "I Can Go The Distance" from Disney's HERCULES. What a prick I am. 
I'm feeling a little better than I have been the passed few days. I'm still really angry, and still in my own head too much, and not totally great. I am yet again in shock of how quickly happiness can be taken away from you. Or at least, the lengths people are willing to go to to try to make that idea a reality. 
I don't think that this particular situation is going to be around for too long. It will most likely flare up again in time, but everyone is going to have to deal with it. They will have no choice but to do so, because nothing and no one will be able to change it. 
Huzzah for cryptic blog entries. Isn't that what I'm good at? Probably not.


Here is what I want to say:
I never finished my college applications, and the deadlines are about to or have already passed. I'm not going to college in the fall. End of story. I'm not sorry about it. My grade in senior seminar might suffer because of it, but I couldn't give a shit.
After I turn 18 I will take my freedom by the horns. I will move out of the house. I will be looking for another job. I will be able to create everything I want. I will set up an online store that has the potential to fail, and if it does fail it will for a reason. I will be surrounded by people I love and who love me. I will probably make bad decisions. But I will also make the right ones. I won't always be happy, but I have control over that. Happiness is possible. And the only way I can maintain that is by doing what I want, regardless of if it's what anyone else thinks is "right" for me.